I have not been writing as much lately, but not for lack of trying. My life has just been quite chaotic as of late. I feel as though I’m still in April, so the fact that it’s just about June really has me thrown. Even writing right now, my mind is going ninety trying to remember everything I need to do.
Self-love is a pretty big talking point these days. Often wrapped tightly around that of ‘self-care’, while they are closely integrated with each other, they are both still quite individual concepts. While self-care involves the curiosity of exploring our emotions, both positive or negative, and exploring them in a way that gives us the space to be gentle while also retaining the power to grow through the learning opportunities. Meanwhile, in my opinion, self-love is more so about our relationship with ourselves. It’s knowing our wants and needs and learning how or when to fulfil them. Doing things for us and realising that it is okay to put ourselves first. It’s a knowledge of our own self-worth.
This week has had such lovely weather. It really does feel like summer is coming, especially since the clocks went forward just last week. Although there has been a bitter chill in the air, the sun makes up for it entirely – so long as a multitude of layers are worn. I feel as though this week has been ever so slightly chaotic, but in the best way! So much has been happening that it’s hard to believe one week has gone by already. Granted, I am finishing this post up on Easter Monday. I decided to take a break for the bank holiday weekend. So, without further ado, here is a mini life update on this sunny week gone by.
Back in August we had plans to go to Galway, but with the LOKdown, that proved impossible. And so, began the long distance that so many of us are used to once again. In order to help us through this next lockdown we began to plan a trip we could runaway to as soon as it was lifted. Now, in all honesty it took a very long time for us to settle on a location or hotel. As we had gone to Bray just a couple months prior we were reluctant to go straight back to Wicklow. But, I’m glad we did.
I had seen that trend on TikTok of owners ‘painting’ with their dogs. I decided today was the day. Playing some good music, I grabbed a square canvas, some of my pastel paints, a ziploc bag and peanut butter and got to work.
Looking after my mind with a gentle curiosity. That’s what self-care is to me. A fundamental part of life that I have always strived towards, yet only recently have managed to truly make time for. The concept of self-care, taking the time to look after ourselves in both body and mind, it’s a tougher challenge than it appears on paper. It has taken years for me to ever manage to get and stay on this path.
Waking up to find my body being used for somebody else’s pleasure should not be an experience so many of us share. The fear of the look in some mens eyes, a look of hunger, lust, too many of us know exactly what I am describing. It’s terrifying.